a confession

shit! that batak boy makes me so crazy in love
really, i can't stand it shit
a year ago i swear i won't fall in love so easily
but it won't happen and yes i'm right
i met a guy and i found out that he's quite interesting
he's very cute, funny and noble
i love to shares to him and he likes to share with me too
he asked me to be his little sister, to be his closest friend a place to share and of course i say "yes"
at that time, i knew he was taken by a pretty girl
and that that girl worth to have him
she's pretty, he's handsome
she's sexy, he's hot
and i know i will never win
until one day, i'm on his house waiting for him to come home from ps
and when he arrives, i felt something wrong.
his face expression, blank. his eyes shows pain - sadness, deep sadness and his smile that i use to see, fade away.
usually he says hi when he sees me but he didn't spoke a word at all.
when he saw my curious, worried face he just faking a smile and it's so painful to see and i know it's hard for him to fake it when he's about to cry
i hugged him gently, eventhough it's hard to reach his neck because he is taller than me.
i can feel it, he's shaking, shaking in horror like he just saw something horrifying
and i can feel his very little tears fall into my shoulder
what happened to him? i wonder in my mind
about 2 hours, he didn't spoke a word at all
until he opens his mouth and sighed
i still wondering what happened to you? and you saw the curiousity in my face
you opened your mouth and tell me everything
after you finished now i know how much it hurts
if i were you, if i see my girlfriend cheats i will be very angry and whinge her but you're just staring from far and hide your anger in your heart. Stupid why did you do that?
i asked you "what will you do then?"
and then you said "it's over"
still how could you forgive that girl, stupid.
but still deep down in my heart, i felt a little happy about you separate with her but i hide it because i didn't want you to know
3 months passed
we become very close
i can feel you sending the sign that i always hope and wanted for
until you said you love me not as a sister anymore but more special than that then i said "yes"
i love you soo much ;)
XOXO

elisha